our riotous defects

"my god. i should have realized. on our second date when you dragged me into the bathroom at tenika's house and screamed at me for like 20 minutes because i had contradicted you in front of your friends. i was like 'oh...' and then later that night at my apartment, as punishment, you killed my beta fish. just threw it out the window. i did everything i could to make you happy. i participated in all your protests. supported your stupid little blog. got a bowflex. wore colored contacts to match your dresses. whatever your eyes caught, i bought. still we fought. like i can tune out but in reverse. cuz you're so."