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Saturday, November 5, 2011

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Hi,

I don't know if anyone still checks this - I'm looking at you, several crazy stalkers. Oh, we've had some good times.

Rather than delete coalesque, I have decided to let it settle into the infinite internet, where in 10 years I will look at it with the same jaded sentimentality I feel when look at my decades-old journals.

Often people - strangers, friends - would ask what my blog was doing. >>

Coalesque was a catalogue of my emotional experience in graduate school. This was a traumatic period of life for me. Studying theology as an agnostic was more difficult than I anticipated. Furthermore, throughout this graduate experience I was unable (physically, mentally) to express the very deep love I had for someone. The psychological ramifications of these trials are still in the process of being resolved.

Writing remains the lonely passion of my life. Most of it I am doing in my head now, and reading more.

I recently finished Murakami's "The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle," and woke up yesterday with a blue mark on my face, just like the main character. I received a message on my phone that I could only access for one second before it disappeared. People are exiting my life in superficial ways and entering them through my dreams. The more books I read, the more things make sense on the inside, even if the external world is beginning to confuse me. But inside - inside ends are showing me their means, and the connective tissues between spirits and atoms are glowing like haunted cartoon DNA.

I will always be a judgmental person because I have made it a point to master the (perhaps arbitrary) qualifying systems of ethics and aesthetics. On that low point, here's the closing remark:



the secrets you keep to yourself, are the most sacred parts of you.

transparency is just that - a spectre.



a summation of the last two anda half years>>>>>>>>

bye>>>>>>>>

kk

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Anonymous said...

Hi. It has been a while. I really hope you have not forgotten your students or this will be utmost pointless gibberish. I'm 18 now and things had never seen so opaque, as for now I'm studying medicine in La Nacho.. and you know things are a bit screwed up. I have no idea if you continue talking to Rovira so I'm going to make a little update on us right here. He, as well, is studyingla Nacional, linguistics specifically, and he seems very passionate about it. We became closer, I would even go as far as to say we are friends, and I feel he is happy at last. Though, happy is a strong word. At least he doesn't seem displeased with the current events that have been going on in his life. I believe he is 19 now too. I have no idea who else was close to you, but a couple of us are in La nacho (14 or 15) and the rest are at Andes or outside the country. Medina is in Germany, Patarroyo lost eleventh grade as well as Alonso. I feel like updates are not my thing .. well, enogh about us. How is your book going? What has happened with your dreams? I hope you are doing okay, I sincerely do.
Respectfully yours,
Sebatián Rodríguez